DEPENDENCY
When it isn't Enough to just watch anymore
When it Hurts just enough to make you sob
When there's so many feelings and he is the Core
When you feel more Devoted than the rest of the mob
When every waking Thought is him
When you'd Bleed to feel his touch
When you Hope and Pray but know you won't win
When losing hurts so Very much
When you cry because your Chance is gone
When you turn Suicidal as well
When you know there's no Chance but still go on
When he is your Heaven and Hell
When you Cling to him, violent and strong
When you decide to make him your Profession
When you'll Wait though you've waited oh so long
When he's no longer an Interest but an Obsession
Unplug these veins from his outlet
Let the blood to flow there be my own
I beg of you, please, to let me be free
But I do this to myself all alone.
copyright: melissa strickbine, april 1999